ADDICTED 2: HOMEMADE CHIPS AND FROZEN GRAPES

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Yesterday, I peel the potatoes in excitement while having to remind myself that chips take time. I peel more than needed, knowing that they have to be cooked and eaten.
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You could ask why I don’t just go to chip shop? Back in the day on a Friday evening and having to wait in line to get your cod and chips, used to be a buzz when the kids were little, that was their highlight of the weekend.
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Getting them on the bikes, to take the walk down the road to Michaels on hainault road.

My mum used to make chips and I was only able to have what I was given, chips wasn’t a thing you could ask more of. Once she had peeled those potatoes and we had eaten, then that was it. But as an adult I control those potatoes, I make the decisions as to how many I get, I peel and cut what I want. But being an adult don’t help, at times I wish me mum would do me chips just to make sure I don’t get out of control.
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The reason why I know it’s a problem, is because I will make sure everyone gets a nice amount, then we will all eat our chips, but the whole house knows that mum has put on more chips, that will be ready to eat after she has finished. I will sometimes have a plate of chips and nothing else, apart from salt. I don’t want anything to spoil the flavour, unless it compliments them. Maybe a nice slice of wholemeal bread or a bit of French stick. Last night I had the most succulent bit of chicken that was cooked for me and I made sure I only ate one piece, so there was enough to have with my other set of chips.

I know this may sounds so disgustingly greedy but, there are not a lot of things that do this to me.

Grapes, but frozen.

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This is a new thing, I was introduced to this frozen grape thing while at my old workplace last year. A colleague/ friend? Asked if I have had grapes frozen before. My face was confused and I didn’t get it. I’m a general red grape kind of girl anyway and will sit and eat a whole bunch happily. Sometimes I like to peel the skin of slowly and take little bites, to then eat the grape and take in every inch of flavour.
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We went and put some in the freezer, so I could see what it was all about and then I had the experience.

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It tasted really good! but like my music, there are a few things I need to try on my own to really understand how good it is.
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So a few months ago I had grapes in the house, (unfortunately when I have fruit at home, which is weekly, my kids just go wild. I made the mistake by telling them, when they were younger, that they don’t need to ask me for fruit, they can just take it.
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Well! That was when fruit was cheap but they still remind me of that saying, every time I start to shout, who has eaten all the bloody fruit.)
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So I decided to hide the grapes in the freezer because no one would look in there, well oh my god, how good were they. And I mean they were orgasmic, i ate them one by one, rolling them around my mouth, as my teeth can sometimes be sensitive and then finally biting into the textured hard grape that was freezing cold, while you could feel it travelling down your stomach and give you goose bumps. I denied this for so long, but to tell the truth, it takes me a while to process things.

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For example I could try someone’s whiskey and tell someone that’s not better than my cider, they may observe me drinking and tell me, Fran you don’t like cider as much as you say you do, because you tend to never finish it, and I would say no I love cider and then later down the line, I would finally realise I don’t really like cider as much as I thought.
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And then ponder on whether I should try a bit of whiskey to see if I like that. Yes I am owning my flaws, unlike some people.
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Since that day, grapes have been a new regular treat for myself. But unfortunately the kids have now started to take part too. And when I have that first grape from the frozen bunch, I think of my friend who opened my eyes to something new, maybe one day I will tell them how I really feel about frozen grapes but until then, I’m keeping quiet.
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So my new thing is not to have the seconds on the chips, I need to understand that I don’t need it. Just because you love something so much over indulgence is somewhat of a sin.
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And as for the grapes, they have just got to keep on coming. Trust me, rain, sun, sleet or snow, I’m gonna keep them grapes in the freezer and continue to eat as much as I like.
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Let me know what your food addiction is.

(PICTURES FROM GOOGLE, WHISPER AND PINTREST)

Xxx Fran xxX

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NUDITY WARNING. In praise of NOWNESS and their Fat Video

CONTENT FOR OVER 18 ONLY.
MAY I JUST START BY SAYING, I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO PUT UP A CONTENT WARNING SIGN UP. SO IF YOUR UNDER 18, THEN GO AWAY. YOUR TO YOUNG AND THIS BLOG POST ISNT FOR YOUR AGE.  IF ANYONE KNOWS HOW TO DO THIS THEN PLEASE LET ME KNOW.

I have just watched, NOWNESS video, Define Beauty:in praise of fat film, Heavyweight staring Vanity Fox and Brock Avery.
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When starting to watch this video, I had no idea of where it was going!

Once I saw the stretch marks and I know this may sound a bit bad but, all I could think of was, OMG! they look like mine. Before you start, no I don’t have any issues with mine or hers.
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Then I paused the video, just to really think about what is going to happen in the space of 1.40 minutes, so I continued. Then to my horror  I saw the water dripping down her body, I couldn’t stop thinking, Ohhh why have sweat running down a fat woman, its just so of putting. Like all we do is sweat, even when its not hot, for Pete’s sake.  Hopefully, the fact that the water was horrific to ME, will make sense the more you read .
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Then the music started, which shit me up to be fair, ( I WAS WEARING HEADPHONES) I really wasn’t expecting it to be so dramatic. Was there a pop up that spoilt my viewing. You know those ones that really like to spoil things for you on the laptop, all of a sudden a voice or music from somewhere starts in the laptop devise, which take you up to a good few minutes to actually find out where it s coming from. Anyway I digress. The music was like an intense fight that you see on a film that starts of slow and builds up to someone seriously getting hurt.
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I then had to start the video all over again, but while doing this, I then got thinking about the name Heavyweight. What do they really mean by this? Is Vanity Fox the heavyweight or Brock, because he was taking care of business? Are they implying that men who love intimacy with a plus size woman should be given the title heavyweight?

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So I continued to watch (AGAIN). Brock was really getting into the groping and everything, he was happy to divulge himself into to her whole body. Which I can imagine people out there cheering him on. lol
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Then i suddenly went back to my original HORROR, (OK! So now you guys must realise by this point, when I get stuck on something, I don’t rest until it makes sense to me, which is the reasons why it becomes HORRIFIC )  the water! Is it suppose to represent something else?

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Was it his love runneth over,  lolololol, if you know what i mean. Was it her love runneth over? They really wasn’t doing anything so strenuous that sweat could have developed, no shower , sink or bath was present. She wasn’t drinking water or anything like that, was it dribble? No really!What was it supposed to blooming be. YES I AM OBSESSING ABOUT THE WATER,  SO IF YOU HAVE A THEORY PLEASE COMMENT, HELP ME OUT HERE.

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What I actually loved about this clip, was the fact that, when all was over and a shot of Vanity’s whole body appeared, her face spoke volumes.

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What was she thinking? was it:

A, You just wished you just had all of this, like he did.

B, You didn’t realise fat could look so good.

C, This is what ya’ll missin.

D, Wow, i wasnt even expecting that.

E, Ladies this is how its done.

F, I am a true goddess and every inch of me, should be worshipped.

What did you think that last look was all about?

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Overall, I liked it ALOT. Heavyweight was intense, had me wanting to see it till the end, I  was also happy to sit back and identify  which parts of the body i was seeing on my screen. I was engrossed, in how he was in an element of indulgence using all his senses to consume every part of her body all at once. And to finish with that look on her face, just topped it of for me. I felt an emotion, cant pinpoint which one.  She gave me a sense of YOU GO GIRL, you ARE HOT and he enjoyed every bit of you. But it still leaves me with the BLOODY WATER.

Full Video below.

Xxx Fran xxX

Fat With Short Hair, Because I Dont Care. 💇✌💪✂🏆

Being apart of a plus size closed group brings up a lot of questions. And one got me thinking about the saying that, fat people shouldn’t have short hair.

This grated me, more so because I have had short hair for over 18 years now.

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Don’t get me wrong, it’s a fact that some hairstyles do look better, due to face shape but fat people have all different face shapes.

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Is it a saying, that society likes to use to contribute to putting down fat people. It’s bad enough being dictated to, in regards to fashion and colours that we shouldn’t wear. God forbid you have short hair too.

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My hair has had colour, been straight and also naturally curly and I have had many different levels of short trust me. due to hearing fat people shouldn’t have short hair, has also had me thinking that my hair shouldn’t be cut to low, due to my size in the past.

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This also got me thinking, when going to a hair salon, do all stylist support the fact that a fat person can go short too. Will their beliefs determine if they do a good job or not. I mean, if a hair stylist doesn’t  feel that fat person can go short, will they do a good job to the look you want. Will you be able to turn up to the salon and say ” I’m tired of long hair, I want it short, set me free” and know that the finish look will have you jumping on the bar stall and doing you best dance moves, cos your feeling hot as hell. I’m not so sure.

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Lucky for me, I haven’t been to a hairdresser in 18 years. Reason being, they were the first to cut my hair short and done the most worst job in the world. So since then, my sister has always cut my hair and I can leave her to do her magic, as I have nothing but confidence in her.

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As time has gone on or it maybe the fact that in have gotten older. I seem to not give a shit about how short my hair is. As long as I like it and it’s had a good cut, I’m happy.

If you’ve heard any fat short hair stories or have heard some nasty comments on fat people and short hair, comment and let me know.

Xxx Fran xxX

Kurve Kit Presents Kurve Konfidential

So this weekend, The Kurve Kit YouTube channel started, with the new series Kurve Konfidential.

The Keys To Confidence, Episode 1 Part 1 of Kurve Konfidential.

I’m so excited, I have some lovely ladies on there and I just can’t wait to have regular content up. We have so much in store.

I have wanted to do this for some time and things are moving in the direction I want them to go. I have so much support its unreal and people who are helping with sending out the messages that I want to get out their.

This has never been about me. Only the Kurve Kit WordPress blog gives you most of my thoughts and feelings that I need to get of my chest. But with the YouTube, Twitter,  and Facebook pages are mainly soley focused on the plus size community. Bare in mind a lot of what I say, share, and talk about can be very relative to the slim community too, as its not only the plus size community that have challenges in their lives.

I also want to thank these beautiful souls, for supporting the beginning of something new and special, I just hope that you all will feel the same way. Please Subscribe, Like, Comment  and Share.

Judi Love
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Tanya B
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Kat Henry
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Michelle Carter
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Likwid design solutions

All links to their pages are on the YouTube description box and on the Episodes.

Plus all my family and friends that honestly believe in all I do and support me in reaching my goals. If it wasn’t for you guys, I don’t know where I would be right now.

I honestly hope you enjoy The Kurve Kit on YouTube and if you don’t let me why. And once again thank you all for reading, watching, supporting, commenting and sharing. I love you guys, it’s because of you why I keep going.

Xxx Fran xxX

How Naked selfies and other beautiful plus size bodies are helping me accept mine. 🙈🙊💪👍👌🙌

Apart of my plus size journey is getting used to seeing myself, all of myself. So I have been taking selfies on a regular basis. But trying to get the best angle is a nightmare.
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Getting used to the size of your face or body takes time. You see everyone else in a picture and they look normal, but when looking at yourself, this seems to be very alien, when your not used to it. So this leed me to embarked on my selfie journey.

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http://www.telegraph.co.uk/women/womens-life/11303311/Naked-women-I-photograph-curvy-women-to-show-real-bodies.html

A very good friend and I send pictures to each other without much clothes on, more so her than me, Lol. Which has been very helpful, as we both give positive commentary in regards to what we see. My friend suggested we need to get looking at other women’s plus size bodies.
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This may not help everyone, I REPEAT, This isn’t something that will work for everybody.

There will be many people with their opinions and reasons why this won’t work for everyone, can I just remind those of you who want to start moaning. I didn’t say it will work for everyone, but it’s worked for me OK, and its my blog and I will say what the F📢🔊K I like.

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Anyways
I’m now going to be very honest, 🙊 I looked at plus size pornography 😱😁 as I wanted to really see what other ladies look like. And I’m not ashamed to say it, it’s there and I needed to see if my body is as different or as odd shaped as I thought. 😯

Can I stress, I’m not a lesbian 😂😂😂, just in case anyone has been wondering. I wanted to see folds, Big thighs, big breast, big arms, that hasn’t been choppped, changed or made smaller.
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I needed to see real plus sized natural bodies. I needed to see something real as my mind has been conditioned with all these “so called” perfect bodies. Which didn’t look anything like mine or anyone else’s that I know.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-3256883/I-finally-accept-way-Plus-size-model-suffered-eating-disorder-body-dysmorphia-courage-pose-NUDE-shoot.html

This got me thinking about how my mind wasn’t able to process how good my body is, due to the unavailability of bodies like mine.

But there are more and more places on the internet that show plus size bodies, to help society in get to grips with real bodies of all shapes and sizes

http://theadipositivityproject.zenfolio.com/all

I don’t suggest everyone do this. But it did help me, in the sense of seeing that my body shape and size really wasn’t as alien as I thought and to be honest, having three kids and including a C section, it isn’t as bad at all. 🙂
http://www.refinery29.com/breast-pictures#slide-12

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I regularly compliment a woman on how good she looks, no matter what size she is. So I need to be able to compliment my own. So be careful where you look if you do decide to. It’s best to find stills of plus size naked women and you can find this nearly anywhere all over the internet, trust me. But I also bet you will see many bodies that are very similar to yours.
http://dailyvenusdiva.com/2013/09/19/plus-size-woman-celebrates-beauty-by-sharing-naked-photos-for-30-days/

THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO REMEMBER IS , that you are not doing this to compare. That’s not what this is all about, it’s to see what others have and acknowledge how beautiful the bodies you see are and how much they resemble your body too. And I can not stress how you will come across a body like yours. The online world is big and you will find many beautiful bodies.
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All photos are from Pintrest, which is a great place to start.

Let me know if you try this method and if it works for you . Enjoy.

Xxx Fran xxX

Most Viewed Post Of The Week, Depaul And Single Ladies 👏👏👏👏👏👏

Here is the most viewed post of the week.

 

Yes, Depaul did it. He put it down and danced till you can’t dance no more. He showed how us plus size people can get down. Size ain’t nothing but a number, and you can dance just as good as the skinny girl or guy next door.

I would also like to say that I’m a little bit of a dance freak when I’m in the mood ( no really, its true! ). Just going to a party and really dancing away, with no care in the world, is something that i look forward too. If there is an event and good music, I’m on the dance floor showing what I got and I don’t care who sees me or what anyone may think. But what I do know is that, I’m go show you how this SHIT is done.

Recently post of plus size women and men dancing have been posted online with nothing but support and encouragement.
such as Roz the Diva with her Pole dancing.

and pole dancer Eda

Plus size group Pretty Big

One of my absolute favorites is Dana Yakar who just dances so beautifully. I have always wanted to do belly dancing and she just inspires me even more

Not only can she dance but she is very beautiful too.

This brings me to the end of Most Viewed this week. But be sure to let me know who your Favourite Plus Size Dancer is. Have a great week people.

 

Xxx Fran xxX